Saturday, October 19, 2019

"The Second Woman," Part 1


Friday night, 11 p.m.-1 a.m.

I leave my apartment and walk to BAM’s Fisher Theater. By now Alia Shawkat has been on stage for six hours and has performed her piece probably 25 times. She’s set to go until 5 p.m. Saturday: a 24-hour, 100-performance marathon of a single 10-line scene inspired by John Cassavetes’s film “Opening Night” (1977). The BAM show is called “The Second Woman,” also the name of the fictional theater piece in which the star of “Opening Night," Gena Rowlands, was performing. I’m holding a ticket for 8 a.m., but BAM has encouraged attendees to arrive at other times, especially in the wee hours when waits are likely to be no more than the 15 or so minutes it takes to run the scene. There’s confusion at the door as staff calculate how many of us to let in: those who started at 5 p.m. and have returned after a break? those scheduled to arrive at midnight? wait, you’re 8 a.m.? — oh, hell, let ‘em all in. More than half of the 250 seats turn out to be empty, and, oddly, almost all of the open seats are on the theater’s right-hand side, as if magnets have pulled patrons left. The attraction, it transpires, is that the two actors perform on that side of a stage bifurcated by an opaque red curtain that blocks upstage action, meaning those sitting opposite must follow via a large screen (stage left) showing a feed shot by six cameras, four stationary and two hand-held by black-clad operators with complicated gear on their backs, who between scenes sit to the side, like high-tech supplicants or priestesses. The rectangular half-stage set is simple: one orange and one green chair at a wooden card table; upstage, an armless chair lifted from a Mad Men shoot, perhaps, along with the stereo system beside it; cherry red carpet; a neon pink sign reading “The Second Woman.” Two sides of the set, including the fourth wall, are fronted with red mesh. 

I arrive during one of Shawkat’s 15-minute breaks, which she takes roughly every two hours. We listen to a recording of a solo pianist pounding out a stately song whose low chords sound like distress or mourning, followed by a theme stroked on single keys that’s similarly cadenced but more plaintive. Shawkat — Virginia, though the character’s name goes unspoken — walks on stage at a similarly unhurried pace, in black 4-inch pumps and a shapeless red dress, pushing a drink cart, then carrying a wicker waste basket. She walks to the card table, pulls out a chair, and sits silently for more than 5 minutes, staring into space. Audience members chat, check phones. The music shifts; the camera operators rise, one moving to front stage center, the other downstage right. We put our phones away. Shawkat, her brown curls (familiar from Arrested Development and Transparent and Search Party) stuffed under a blonde wig, strolls downstage, turns her back to us, and stares upward. A camera shoots her face through the red mesh; we see her wide brown uplifted eyes in closeup projected stage right. A man enters — Marty, carrying a paper bag. He looks at her back, approaches, sniffs or kisses her neck. He moves away. She turns. He apologizes for acting crudely before, saying she had shocked him. She asks how he is, what he’s thinking about. He answers, asks if she wants a drink. She does. He pours two, sets them and the bag on the table. They drink, eat with chopsticks from two cartons of thin Chinese noodles. She wants to tell him something. Is it the end of the world? he asks. No, she says. “I’m too good for you,” she says. “I don’t want to hear that,” he says. He kisses her cheek. She stands, pours another drink, apologizes, says “I’m begging again,” sits back down. “I don’t care if you don’t think I’m beautiful,” she says. “I do,” he says.“You don’t think I’m funny,” she says. He says she’s hilarious. “You don’t think I’m capable; all I want is to be capable,” she says. He tells her she’s capable, then lists approbative adjectives: She’s smart, beautiful, talented, wonderful, outstanding, great. A pause. “And I love you,” she says. “And you love me,” he says. She dumps her carton of noodles on him. She walks to the stereo, turns on a peppy, syrupy R&B number (“Love To Touch Your Love”?). He approaches, wraps his arms around her. The embrace turns into a dance. After a while they separate, and she turns off the music. She moves to the drink cart, where she takes a $50 bill from her wallet, extends it to him, and asks him to go. He says one last sentence, then leaves. The camera operators sit. The piano music resumes. Shawkat with a steady precision picks noodles from the carpet, throws away the garbage, rearranges furniture, returns glasses, lines up bottles, and, with the set back to its original state, sits at the card table for three or four minutes as we check our phones until the music shifts and the camera operators rise and the next Marty enters. Shawkat will perform the scene with 100 different Martys, most not professional actors. 

In two hours I see seven or eight scenes (I lose track), but the extremes of Marty behavior are set by the first two actors. Marty No. 1 plays it fast and goofy. His line deliveries are stilted, and he does a lot of stage business. He and Virginia get into a chopstick fight. He seems to forget lines. (At this point I don’t know the scene and can’t be sure.) They break up laughing at least twice. None of the dialogue registers; they could be saying nonsense words. She throws her noodles as if at a 4-year-old. They conduct their dance in an awkward hug, with exaggerated back pats, as if Pee Wee Herman were forced to slow dance with a lady who smelled bad. The audience laughs steadily. Marty No. 2 plays it slow and sexy. He lingers at his initial approach to her neck, comes back for a second whiff. Their gazes crackle. HIs approach is lupine, his lust overt; audience members groan in distaste. Each line of dialogue registers. When she says “I’m too good for you,” Marty falls back in his chair; his delayed response (“I don’t want to hear that”) speaks a jilted lover’s pain. When he lists her positive adjectives (“You’re great, outstanding …”) his measured pace makes their increasing vacuity distressing; when she says, “And I love you,” she’s finishing his thought, indicating that as the next line she wants him to say. When he answers, “And you love me,” the pronoun reversal is too much: she dumps her noodles with rage. When she turns on the music he waits a long time, then seems to win her back with a dance that’s slow and heated. Her request that he leave and his departing “I love you” register as equally wretched. 

None of the other Martys approach No. 2’s considered pace or his charisma, and without heat the scene plays as comedy. Shawkat’s stage business varies. She feeds noodles to some Martys, taunting or silly. She mugs with others, sticking out her tongue or making faces. Each of her dances is different: she collapses to the floor solo; slides slowly down one’s torso; provokes another into a brief dance battle; theatrically eschews a battle with another. When one Marty neatly folds his paper bag, she spends a long minute opening it wide, jamming a fist into it, standing it upside down on the table: a protest against his anality. 

Shawkat’s line readings are almost identical in every scene, conveying emotional neutrality. After three or four scenes their flatness starts to seem odd. At first I attribute this to her need to conserve energy. But I’m disappointed: Why not try different colors? Why not play giddy, or sloppy, or morose? Wouldn’t that keep her interest over 100 performances and 24 hours? Then I consider: Maybe her role is as this experiment’s constant. Start and speak from the same point on the horizon, and see what the 100 Martys can evoke or provoke. In my two nighttime hours, the Martys save No. 2 generate little but silliness. 

When Virginia ends one scene by carrying the wicker basket and pushing the drink cart off stage — break time! — I leave. I step into the autumn chill at the same time as Marty No. 2. He’s good looking, vaguely familiar. I tell him his scene was the best I saw. I mention the moment when he lists the empty compliments and she concludes by telling him what he should have said: “And I love you.” No other Marty provoked anger, which strikes me as the only way to make her noodle-tossing make sense. No. 2 says, “We got the pages three days ago, and I read it a bunch, but I never understood that moment until she did it on stage. She was furious. I’m glad that registered.” I want to praise his pacing, but we’re going separate ways. What’s your name? I ask. “Josh Hamilton,” he says. “What’s yours?” 

At home I look him up: the son of two actors, Hamilton has been acting since age 8 and trails a long list of credits in theater (The Cherry Orchard at BAM, Proof and The Coast Of Utopia on Broadway), film (Away We Go, J. Edgar, Frances Ha, Manchester By The Sea), and TV (ABC Afterschool Specials, Absolutely Fabulous, Louie, 13 Reasons Why). HIs résumé seems to stand in opposition to an effect sought by the play’s Australian creators, Anna Breckon and Nat Randall. Their format, including amateur Martys, they write in the program, “makes the show vulnerable to failure; it is also what makes it dynamic, live, and full of possibility.” Myself, I wouldn’t have minded a few more seasoned actors to push Shawkat harder. 

Thursday, October 17, 2019

Loma Prieta

My mother, living in Marin County, sent an email this afternoon to me in Brooklyn and my sister in Delaware and my cousin near Devon, England:


Greetings,

The news this morning is telling us that 30 years ago today the Loma Prieta earthquake took place. Gavin, you had just moved to Santa Cruz, and as I recall you were shaken up for a long while. M., you were NOT on the bridge in a car but on BART. Right? How did you and T. land up having dinner at Aunt Sheila’s? Did you spend the night there? We felt one hard jolt in Stockton and that was about all. But the Bay Area did have considerable damage.

Who eventually won the World Series, the Giants or A’s?

It just so happens that we have had some minor shakes this week in the Bay Area.  We’ll see.

Love,
Mom



Mom (and M. and T.), 

I was working in Capitola, at ASAP Systems, ready to head home to watch Game 3 of the A's-Giants World Series, about to start at Candlestick Park. When things began to fall off the walls I have a distinct memory of scrambling under my large desk, but another staffer later told me she saw me standing stock still, frozen. I don't know which version is true. I also couldn't say how long the quake lasted: 30 seconds? 3 minutes? The power went out, but the office didn't suffer much damage, and I took my regular bus home, to Beach Flats, in Santa Cruz, right on schedule. As I waited three dogs trotted in triangle formation down 41st Avenue toward the beach, tongues out, eyes wide, tags jangling, disturbed but determined, as if on a mission. As the bus neared central Santa Cruz I saw more and more destruction -- trees fallen, houses off their foundations, a building partially collapsed -- and it slowly dawned: this was bad. But my apartment wasn't damaged, just messy. (I lived in a long two-story complex, likely built in the '60s, and my apartment was on its eastern edge; I later learned that apartments on the western side, nearer the ocean, had experienced a "whip-crack" effect as the ground rolled beneath them, and they suffered foundation and water-heater damage that required them to evacuate. But as my place was nearer the handle, as it were, little was disturbed.) I wandered around town, chased off a bridge by a solo cop, kept away by a phalanx of cops from downtown (where many buildings collapsed and several people died), picking up snatches of news from people with battery-powered transistors. (Freeway collapse! Bay Bridge section down!) Lots of people were hosting impromptu cookouts, and a kind stranger gave me a burger and some ice cream. (“It won’t last long,” she said.). I walked for hours, until long after sunset, dazed, opened up, unmoored. A visitor from Oklahoma told me he'd watched the parking lot where he was standing split right under his feet: "I have no idea how people live here," he said. (Don't you have entire seasons devoted to tornados?, I thought but didn't say.) The experience -- kaleidoscopic, vivid but turgid, as if I were moving underwater or in a dream -- made me realize that folks at the centers of news events can provide only limited witness: with granular detail but poor perspective, they can describe their tiny section of the elephant, with no idea of its size or shape or nature. 

I spent a couple of days helping at a Red Cross facility for the displaced set up at the county fairgrounds where I saw — could that be? it could only be — Mick Jagger, in Oakland for a Stones concert, having donated cash and now touring the epicenter, his body impeccably fit, his face remarkably lined, accompanied by a stunning blonde assistant; he sought conversation with nurses and volunteers, his manner that of a soothing, seasoned politician. Tremors were constant; the ground never seemed to stop moving. My office was closed and I had nothing to do. I slept little; I kept jerking awake, sturdy shoes and a go-bag by the bed. In the late afternoon of the second day, I was walking past a large, single-screen movie house (on Water Street, I think; the theater seems to be shut down) when I heard shopkeepers and residents exclaiming: power had been restored. Amazingly, the theatre manager was there -- by himself, as I recall -- and, when I asked, said “Absolutely!”: he was open for business. I bought a ticket and a box of Milk Duds, took my pick among the 250-odd red-velvet seats, and, all by myself, watched The Fabulous Baker Boys, which I've not seen since but remains in my memory a brilliant little film, a verdict no doubt tinged by my eagerness for escape. That night I called you and Dad and asked if I could come to Stockton, a trip that, for the carless, involved a van over the hill to San Jose, then a bus, then a train. I don't know that I was ever as happy to sit by the pool at 9030 Frankford Lane. 

They postponed the World Series for a week. The A's had won the first two games in Oakland, and they went on to win the next two delayed games at Candlestick to sweep a good Giants team -- perhaps the best single season in Oakland A's history, tinged if not tainted by the calamity. 

Here's to solid ground. Love,
Gavin



Sunday, June 23, 2019

Quarter

My daughter, 11, wrote this poem this morning and asked me to post it.



i don’t believe in god
exactly
but i do believe in something
some force greater than us
some force that gave us life
maybe on purpose
maybe not
maybe our universe is a forgotten basement lego project
or maybe one of those old-fashioned arcade games
maybe somewhere out there, a little girl put in a quarter
and watched as our world started to spin

Thursday, June 20, 2019

Medical History



(with thanks to Erika Meitner)



I have no 
Hospital visits worthy of mention, 
No allergies of any kind.
Confess contempt for you
Confused by ibuprofin, 
Tetracycline, anesthetic, 
Fluoride, latex, nuts, other.
I have no 
History of infective endocarditis, 
Fake valves, defibs, defects.
My heart beats in a steel box.
My cholesterol rocks. 
I have no 
Pneumonia, anemia, TB, apnea, 
Long bleeds from slight cuts.
My joints are original,
My prostate impregnable. 
Calcium, thyroid, hormones:
The opposite of deficient.
No jaundice. No kidney, no liver,
No duodenal disorders.
My chicken pox was epic,
And then it was over.
I take no statins, no supplements.
I am not, thanks for asking, pregnant.
My emotional pains are not to speak of.
I smoke nothing
But the occasional joint
Or vape or bong hit
Which I can take or leave.
Three drinks a week. Four. Maybe six
Or ten, depending.
Some days are better than others.
I have never had radiation therapy
Or contact lenses.
Could clearly witness my father
Tugged to sea on the tide of
A neurologic disorder.
My mom’s fine. She’s 89,
And when her salt levels soared
For reasons no one could fathom
And for days she lay listless, dizzy, 
Confounded by a simple query
And unable to swallow pills
Or to piss without my sister
Hauling her body to the toilet, 
Hauling her back to the bed
Where dad had died
Or might as well have
And we thought we’d need an aide
Or a nurse or a full-time 
Dependent living situation until
For reasons no one could fathom
Though it likely had to do with
A blood pressure medication allergy
Which as I mentioned I did not inherit
She got better. She’s fine. 
Did I tell you she’s 89? 
I need list no vitamins or medications 
Taken in the last two years for 
I bestride this chilled pea-green waiting room
Like a god, a hero, a conquering Titan.
I fear no needle, no X-ray, no survey,
No scan, no chart, no probe,
No doctor. No man. No woman. No other.